Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Bitter sweet

I have been thinking a lot about Taylor and how fast he is growing. It really got me thinking about the time I spend at work and the time we are away from each other.

I then decided to change my schedule to work evenings so that I can spend all day long with Taylor. I am so happy for this change. I feel that I can really spend some time with him before he starts going to school. I feel so lucky to be able to have the opportunity to do this.

I am going to work 4-9 pretty much everyday. And add some Saturdays so that when I am at work, Taylor gets to be with his daddy. (Which he REALLY enjoys)

I love waking up in the morning and seeing his adorable face. The fact that I do not have to rush and get ready for work and leave him.....is amazing. I can bring him breakfast in bed and we can do extremely fun activities everyday!

I think that when I stayed home with him before for 17 months was very different. In a way I was still very young and I didn't get to REALLY appreciate it as much as I can now. I really do understand why children should not have children. Now, I am grateful because I am still young and I can really enjoy his company, run around and grow with him.

The Bitter part is the part that I will not be able to spend as much time with Scott. I mean I can still see him at night and on the weekends after work. The thing that I slack usually though is the housework.....dishes, laundry, vacuuming etc. I think that I used to come home sooo tired that I couldn't keep the house up but now It has been night and day. I feel like I have the energy to clean and keep my house well maintained and still have the time to have a good time with Taylor. I'm sure that in time Scott will appreciate it as well.

I had such a hard week last week. Anything that you can think of bad..happened. I am so glad that this is a new week. But no matter how tough my days are...all i have to do is look at Taylor and he reminds of me of why I must not be discouraged. <3

1 comment:

JnA said...

that's so great. I work nights too, and the other day I was just hinking about how lucky I am to be able to have the days with Tommy.
It does get tiring sometimes working ngihts, but it's for a good reason!